One of the greatest things about blogging (for me anyway) is the constant self discovery it allows. Over the time I have written things, gone back to check them, yes, occasionally, I do edit my posts, and thought "wow, I had no idea I felt that way." Sometimes the words just line up and form themselves into sentences, paragraphs and complete thought, more or less. And they reflect an opinion of mine.
It is never earth shattering, or even all that amazing. Nothing that would result in jail time or extra prayers at confession. Just little, unexpected quirks, maybe personality flaws, maybe character virtues, maybe just mundane trivia, but quick glimpses into who I am. Which is a complex organism.
Over the years I have taken bits of other people and incorporated the traits I found admirable, or amusing into myself. Affectations, mannerisms, whatever seemed unique, and interesting became conglomerated into my personality.

It has made me more than I was, but it has come at a cost. I am not always sure where I end and others begin. It is not a high cost, or big expense, but it is inconvenient at times. Particularly as I age.
Something fantastic will pop into my head, and a smile will start to form. Then the doubt creeps in.
"Is that me, or Mike from my days as a masonry laborer?"
So many things from so many people, and somehow there is still a whole person, perhaps, inside. And once in a while he will take the reins and type away. And it will surprise me.
It is always nice to meet me though, and often times I have blogging to thank. So, if you need to get in touch with yourself blogging might be the answer. And if you need to get in touch with me, blogging is almost assuredly the answer. And if you need to get in touch with your boss, call, a selfie of you laying in bed complaining about the near fatal illness that has almost crippled you is not going to help your case tomorrow when you waltz into work talking about how great the fishing was.
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